Today is finally occurred some peace in my life, a day where you can sit back once. So you can finally think about something, about the things that have happened in the last couple of days.
I told you so on the Saturday, but I would like to expand a little. This event threw me back into my past, but I'm not broken it. I would just simply do not think the people that such a situation totally makes me all that I do not clearly come into my life. So it is indeed not at all now. I also want to be pitied for nothing, saying things like "poor you" or "I'm sorry," I can not hear anymore, because they really put on me do not.
I doing well, no matter whether I make from time to time have no hunger or my body with me what he wants. This is even after all that I have been through in my life as normal. One can not expect me that from today to tomorrow's all good, this is not possible, simply because it takes its time.
I am a strong young woman who tries to make the best of their past and it can give nunmal not always have sunshine. This does not, when you see me cry again, all this starts all over again. My feelings I will not hide and have therefore started to work on me, so feelings blurt nunmal just now out of me.
Last Sunday, I'm really seriously thought about by the incident Saturday. But it was not about the processing, it was to whom I will talk about. Should I tell my parents what had happened or my therapist? My friends have all advised against me and ich denke auch dass es wirklich das Beste gewesen ist.
Wenn meine Eltern gewusst hätten, was vorgefallen ist, wären sie sofort zu mir gekommen und würden mich bedauern. Außerdem hätten sie gewollt das ich nicht in Dresden bleibe, sondern zu ihnen fahre, weil ich ja alleine bestimmt wieder Blödsinn machen würde. Aber ich will nunmal nicht zu ihnen und das nicht ohne Grund!
Als ich am Montag bei meiner Therapie saß habe ich hin und her überlegt, ob ich es ihr vielleicht sage. Doch ich hatte einfach keine Lust, das sie die Stundenanzahl der Therapie deswegen vielleicht noch hoch setzt, nur weil eben mal wieder etwas happened. I mean clearly makes you look after such an event already thought, but that would be in any normal people so, oh so no, I forgot, I'm not normal.
I have to admit this week it was the first therapy session that I found very interesting. It was not as nearly always around my mother, but about the people who go to therapy. My psychologist told me about a book that had written an / a colleague / colleague of hers, it came out "Anyone here who actually treated?".
makes the most of the actual therapy, they need not. Only in very few cases actually get the people sitting on the chair, where it would be necessary. My psychologist and I agreed on that subject, because the people who really need a make destroy rather different, and have to go in her place for therapy. Most patients will be even more of these people sent for treatment ...
Yes, and just as it was for me. Had my mother been in treatment when I was a kid, things would have gone differently. But I always was and always the victims at their whims.
But I'm the one always and again as "not normal" tossing. Am I not normal because I have often had problems as a child? I am not normal just because I enjoy my life and am happy? I'm not normal because I would cry too if I'm sad? I'm not normal because I just want to be a free man, without being forced by others to do anything?
For exactly these things make me but as normal. I'm normal because I want to live simply because I nunmal I want to be and not like others I would like. I seriously wonder what kind of people can only claim that one is not normal. it is these people should reconsider what they are and what they do.
normal what is really normal? Just because someone thinks differently, he must not be the same even abnormal. It's not normal to think that all human beings the same!
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